sullen & apathetic

in a small sleepy river town

a white haired 60-year old German with his

29-year old squeeze for two years said,

everyday I call my wife in Germany at 2 p.m. then I am free.

she always asks me why do you go to Cambodia. i go to Cambodia to come inside my squeeze. to received tenderness under the false pretense of love and affection.

it’s part of the International Fair Trade Agreement. i trade her my money for her time. it’s a mutually beneficial relationship.

how’s the garden doing in Berlin? fine. 

sullen and apathetic suits their nature. evolutionary process. the khmer woman stabbed her lover in his heartless heart using laser quided molecular silent revenge. take that you bastard.

khmer new year

14-16 April

Wiki data.

Maha Songkran 

Maha Songkran, derived from Sanskrit Maha Sankranti, is the name of the first day of the new year celebration. It is the ending of the year and the beginning of a new one. People dress up and light candles and burn incense sticks at shrines, where the members of each family pay homage to offer thanks for the Buddha's teachings by bowing, kneeling and prostrating themselves three times before his image. For good luck people wash their face with holy water in the morning, their chests at noon, and their feet in the evening before they go to bed.

Virak Wanabat

Virak Wanabat is the name of the second day of the new year celebration. People contribute charity to the less fortunate by helping the poor, servants, homeless, and low-income families. Families attend a dedication ceremony to their ancestors at the monastery.

Tngay Leang Saka

Tngay Leang Saka is the name of the third day of the new year celebration. Buddhists cleanse the Buddha statues and their elders with perfumed water. Bathing the Buddha images is the symbol that water will be needed for all kinds of plants and lives. It is also thought to be a kind deed that will bring longevity, good luck, happiness and prosperity in life. By bathing their grandparents and parents, children can obtain from them best wishes and good advice for the future.

A Cambodian woman waits for alms in a market.

tears & laughter

today is the day of my dreams, laughed elf.

you are always laughing, said serious orphan. are you sick.

a momentary loss of a reasonable hypothesis minus fear and regret, said elf, laughing.

we are the only animals who weep and laugh.

tears=relief, laugher=release

we know so much and understand so little, sighed orphan.

the more we see the less we know, said elf.

yes, said serious orphan, we need love and understanding.

passion and desire creates suffering, laughed elf.

let's have a little explore.

what we don't see is fascinating. wired brains desire meaning. 

memory 3

then what happened in the plotless point, asked elf.

a young smiling cambodian man without hands smoked a cigarette.

he held it between stubs.

his rolling cart held genocide books and angkor aspara dancers.

he left a fractured conversation with a friend in expansive green shade near a brown river. 

hi mister, want to buy a book? a dancer? cheap. good morning price. brings luck.

no thank you. reading history is destined for marvelous suffering memory.

dancers live forever, he said, dancing to the sea. waves turned a page.

one leg

yes, said orphan, let's fly away.

elf agreed, after a month playing with spontaneous five-year young experts. 

where shall we go?

it's a small planet.

how about cambodia, we know it well.

ok. 9 months in laos learning, laughing, loving, sharing was a joy.

on fool's day they arrived in siem reap. a hustler showed up. i am poor. i need money for my family.

i remember this story, said elf.

it's an old one, said orphan. 

let's go see friends.

they walked into a gritty world, surrounded by empty glass and brass hotels.

children scavaged trash.

they passed a one legged man on crutches. what happened to him, asked elf.

he stepped on a land mine while planting rice.