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Thursday
Nov272025

Leaving Sapa by Tran

Singing farewell to friends and strangers I’m reminded of a quote by Georgia O’Keefe, “There are times when one spends an afternoon with someone whom they will never see again.”

We roll inside flying clouds through deep mountain passes, past deep brown running rivers, sculptured terraced green rice paddies. Thin bamboo walled hut homes, teams of boys driving water buffalo home, invisible valleys, forests, mist shrouded habitats tucked into distant hills.

Peaks obscured by fast clouds, road construction crews dreaming/living in hovels with one change of dry clothing, past women nursing infants near wood fires inside dark dirt floor interiors where smoke escapes through porous bamboo splinters.

A smiling Red Dzao women thumbs a ride, heavy laboring trucks and we rolled into Lao Cai.

It is a noisy miniature Hanoi. You notice the heavy air, polluted by vehicles dancing commerce, irate impatient motorcycle beepers, horns, whirling traffic, people competing for time and money. Drivers from Sapa get a kickback from hotel owners.

At a restaurant near the station is supply and demand value exchange. Touts are on us like flies on shit. They scramble, Here, Here, you can leave your bags here. Sit down. See the menu, says a suave hustler boy.

The sidewalk is littered with tables and chairs. The woman owner offers green tea.

Japanese, French, English, Thai and Vietnamese tourists drop their packs and collapse. There are three evening trains. Blow whistle blow. Southbound.

Tables are packed with middle-aged Thai tourists. The fat men wear watches studded with blood diamonds. Fat wives’ hair is styled. One woman is the jokester. She teases people. She laughs long and LOUD. The men swill beer, the women green tea. They talk loud and fast. Their tour group is on a four-day buying mission from Bang Cock. Their numerous bags, suitcases and boxes of Chinese appliances fills the restaurant, spilling into the street. Their cargo will clog train passageways.

A seven-month pregnant Vietnamese woman serving people moves around tables toward the sidewalk and slips on a cement slope. She hits the street. Flat on her belly. People rush to help her up. She’s shaken not stirred recovers her composure and collapses in a flimsy plastic chair.

 

A shoeshine boy in his late teens on a serious economic cleaning mission wearing a torn white t-shirt and baseball cap points at my dirty climbing boots, Mister, your shoes need waving a white plastic bottle of liquid in the air. I stare at him. No words. He tries again. No thanks. He doesn’t understand. No, thanks.

This is English 101 on the street of dreams with life’s economic expectations hustling and selling a quiet determined desperation.

He waves the bottle, pointing at my shoes. His confidence wavers. He loses eye contact. He knows he has no sale but tries again  ... Your  ... before he can repeat his pitch, I level his glance with a slight tonal breath. No thanks.

He wanders to another potential sale trapped in a plastic chair waiting for food, waiting for their train to leave, waiting for their next destination, waiting to die on their tourist trail of quest love. Smart ones avoid his words, his eyes. This always works. Avoidance.

Pretend someone doesn’t exist. Ignorance is bliss. Ignorance is fear.

A young angry spoiled girl-child in the diner with her grandfather plays with a mechanical Santa Claus sleigh toy. He winds it up, sets it on the floor and lets it go. It plays Jingle Bells, rolls along the floor and crashes into a glass door. The sleigh rocks back and forth as Rudolph bashes his red nose into glass as spinning wheels ring Jingle Bells. Dancing all the way. The girl plays with this toy for three minutes gets bored and whines. Her grandfather collects her babbling esoteric poem.

Two kitchen girls at a table shucking green beans peal the skin of whining children.

A guy comes in and makes small talk. He pulls out an 8GB iPod. He fiddles with the dials, displaying photographs. Want to buy this, cheap, $200.

No thanks, I have one.

Yeah, this is new, I bought it from a tourist before they died of beggar fatigue.

You’re very clever, good luck selling it maybe you can trade it for a landmine.

The 2015 Lao Cai express prepares to depart for Hanoi. The boisterous group of Thai tourists reading gold time watches grasping Gucci Florentine handbags wrestle impossible suitcases and cheap Chinese appliances into the train.

Their leader works for Herbie Lives Organic and a freelance tour guide. He leaned over with unmitigated glee displaying his lapel pin with the bamboo company logo and heart saying, All Natural.

Sapa was magnificent, just what a traveler needed for peaceful fresh air nature and human connection. Bliss. Mountains fog mist clouds rain sun valleys and rivers. You know you’re in the zone when ten days feels like ten eons.

After dismissing Hanoi taxi touts Tran’s Dream Sweeper collects dreams from sleeping monkeys. Shh, the bats are roosting in palm tree serenity outside the window.

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

  

 

Thursday
Nov202025

In Hanoi by Ku

Ku said, I feel embarrassed when I go to Hanoi. They call me Little Cat.

She is from the Black Hmong tribe. She is 16 and Sa’s youngest daughter.

I am confused there. Too many cars and buildings. It’s hard to see the sky. The city is too big. It is noisy and scary. I get lost. She smiled.

Do you know what we call the Hanoi city people, talking monkeys. They go to Sapa to buy cheap Chinese junk. They miss the noise, motorcycles, tall buildings, endless clatter and traffic confusion. They run into buildings. They hide. They are afraid of nature. They complain it’s too cold it’s too hot it’s too weird say the city people with all these noble literate savages trying to sell us things like bags and embroidery and nature walks.

They don’t fool me.

 

Yes, they are strange animals. Because I am smart I speak many languages; our Hmong dialects, Dzao, Tay, Vietnamese, Mandarin learned from Chinese traders in the mountains, English, European words, even some Tibetan.

 

Cool eh, I love languages, especially nature’s language, like animals, mountains, clouds, rivers, sky, and wind.

Many people need more life experiences, she reflected on a cool rainy day in Sapa sitting in the market overlooking valleys hearing birds and noble savages sing their authenticity and integrity. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

Thursday
Nov132025

Drum

From the 4th floor balcony you see the yellow elementary school building. Students are obedient. Teachers are bored, overworked and underpaid. Drones. Going through chalk and talk with dry drab emotions. Memorize the text. Grammar rules. Close your mouth and open your ears. Vomit the material.

A red flag with a bright five-point yellow star is silent. All the hot air is in the classroom. The educational skin drum at the school echoes a long deep resonating thunder. Vibrations bounce off clouds and granite mountains. It is large and stretched tight. Clouds and mountains? No the skin drum.

Remember all the amazing drums at the Ethnology Museum over centuries and A Century Is Nothing, but a long now, drums here are essential for communicating over distance.

Drum language has two tones.

Be the drum, frequency and vibration, said little drummer boy pounding out his message. Thump. Thump. Thump. Three heavy beats. Vibrations echo across Sapa space and curl around the lake into eastern mountains.

Drums call young tribal members. All the children gather. Be the drum with mind-at-large.

It is seasonal mountain music saying plant, weave art, make children, tend animals, harvest fields, celebrate life, all the gathering of Black, White, Flower Hmong, Red Dzao, Tay. Community.

 

Spirit. Storytellers. Animism. Integrity. Authenticity. Nature is your inspiration, guide and teacher.

You live in an amazing art museum.

Cheap foreign plastic factory junk overwhelms natural fiber markets, threading globalization.

Joyful female cloth sellers in the old fabric market sustain energies in their sewing community.

The Hmong and Red Dzao women walk from their villages to stay in Sapa for 3-4 days like their daughters. If they sell or don’t sell they return to their village.

It’s a long walk. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

 

 

 

Wednesday
Nov052025

Michelangelo Explains How Sapa Works

American, 50’s and married to a Hmong woman. She sews and sells in the cloth market. This is how it works, he said. The exploitation of local people in Sapa means Vietnamese own the hotels and control tour groups. Local guides make $5 a day. All the money goes to Vietnamese businesses. There’s no autonomy for minority hill tribe people.      

Tourists and travelers need to arrange individual Sapa travel plans. Be independent. This way they support the local people. Spend money directly with the locals. Tourists need to be made aware of this reality, especially when in Hanoi making plans. Most foreign visitors stay 2-3 days then out. The local government tour office controls the home-stay business and limits the economic potential of the Hmong.

I walked into the Sapa Tourist Office. A friendly fat Vietnamese man in a suit sat behind a big clean teak desk. He assumes I’m a new arrival. We chat about Sapa.

Can I make home stay arrangements with the Hmong?

Alarm bells exploded his round passive face. Oh no! You mustn’t do that. Years ago we had trouble. A foreigner did that and ended up missing in some village. He was killed.

Wow, really.

Yes, we expect foreigners to make arrangements through us. They have to be careful dealing with the local people. We have a responsibility for visitors, thinking they are Noble Savages.

I see. Thanks.

He looked at his big fake gold watch. Time for lunch. Let’s Eat. 

 

 

Buy Day Mountain by Light

A Sapa park loves baby red roses. A fractured historical liberation statue is dusty. The neglected fountain has brackish water.

Six Red Dzao women talk with threaded samples on the ground.

Do you want to buy from me, said one, smiling her golden teeth.

Yes, I want to buy the mountain, pointing to the rising green western forest, steel gray granite slabs, deep shaded mysterious valleys with rolling gray clouds dancing around the edges escaping from peaks toward us.

Ok, she said. I will sell you the day mountain for 10,000 and the night mountain for 10,000.

Ok, It’s a deal. We laugh in this precious moment. 

 

 

Most tourists disguised as humans do not really meet, know and understand the locals. They are in a big fat fucking hurry. Travelers are slow, involved, patient, caring, kind, curious and absorbing the lessons they need to learn.

Travelers discover, tourists find.

Time is the greatest wealth. The soul travels at the speed of a camel.

Predicting the future is hard work, said Tran. It’s a dynamic equilibrium. Natural energies play ancient drums pounding children to class, gathering laughter, echoes rise on water, diamonds rest on a bamboo leaf. Water music. Patience. Zen.

Crazy Cloud said, Trust and Innocence and Patience are guides. Cherish them.

Inner Voice said, The oracle speaks the truth. It represents clarity transcending dualities. Whatever you do: sleep, eat, rest, walk, speak, or practice silence, truth and beauty is silent. This radiant vibrant blissful song of yourself is grace, gratitude and beauty, a ray of light from beyond this world.

A Rebel said, Be the master of your own destiny. You have broken the chains of society’s repressive conditioning and opinion onions. Anybody who is not miserable looks like a stranger.

An enlightened person is the greatest stranger in the world. They do not belong to anybody. No organization, no community, no society, no nation confines them.

Playing my blues harp I blow and I draw, said Leo. I express my crazy rebellious literary intuitive instincts. I dream rainbows of light with Hmong, Dzao, Tay people walking, singing in mountains, filling air skies and hearts with their song, their stories, this symphony of voices are direct immediate sensations. Mist mountains fly into sky, a blessing with gratitude. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged

Monday
Oct202025

Finch's Cage

After seeing Tao I found an Internet cafe and sat outside.

I met a human-bird.

Finch had a yellow chest, red beak and brown feathers. It was outside the plate glass door. It had escaped from its small bamboo cage in the main room.

Someone, perhaps the young mother worried about her wailing infant or her old mother worried about dying alone or her brother worried about dying of boredom had left the cage door open.

Finch was outside. It sang, Where’s my home, what is this beautiful world?

Finch hugged the ground. It saw trees across the street. It saw a blue sky and inhaled clear, clean mountain air. It heard birds singing in trees but it didn’t understand them. Their songs were about nesting, flying, clouds, sky, rain, warm sun, rivers, bark, worms, snails, and melodies of nature’s freedom.

I wondered if Finch would fly away. I hoped so however I knew it was afraid to go. It was obvious.

It lacked real flying experience, where you lift off beating your wings to get up and get going to escape gravity’s weight pulling you down as freedom pulls you up into everything new and exciting reaching an attitude or altitude and you turn glide and relax feeling air beneath your wings. You soar free.

Finch, conditioned to a caged world of perch, food and water looked and listened to the world. This was enough.

Finch retreated from the possibility of freedom and pecked at loose seeds in a narrow crevice below the glass door. It smelled the dark stale room where the cage waited. It needed someone to rescue it.

It sang, Help, Let me in. I want to come home. I’ve been outside and I’ve seen enough. It’s a big scary place. I promise I’ll never try to escape again. I was curious, that’s all, I’ve seen enough. Please let me in.

Finch was amazing in its beauty. Yellow, red, brown, bright-eyed in its small alert aloneness.

An old woman came out, trapped it in a purple cloth and returned Finch to its cage. She closed the bamboo door and snapped the latch shut.

Did you learn your lesson little bird, she whispered.

Finch sat on its perch, had a long cool drink of water singing, Thank you now I am truly happy.

The old woman didn’t understand this language, muttered under her breath about inconvenience and shuffled down a long dark hallway to kill a chicken for lunch. 

Book of Amnesia Unabridged