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Thursday
Jun092016

Wisdom mind of intent - TLC 83

After 9/11 magnificent violent stories developed petri dish experiments.

Stories invented cultures, languages, art, music, and historical futures. Myths. Facts. Truths. Tales evolved new identities named Fear & Uncertainty & Surprise and What If?

“Buy low and sell high,” Omar said. Sand shifted beneath their feet. Infinite sky was blue.

He was a man of few words. “Yes, it’s not that different now.”

They contemplated vast silent emptiness.

“What is life?” said Lucky.

“The need for mystery is greater than the need for an answer. Baraka is a supernatural power. Blessing. The universe is comprehensible.”

*

At that instant following a 90-minute chakra body massage in Luang Prabang, a Disneyland of world heritage distinction filled with French and German and Italian babbling idiots staggering on medical canes craning arthritic necks toward cold European winter memories grasping creased maps filled with blood red dots depicting wats, guesthouses and H’mong night markets featuring oval tongued storytellers minus canes, awkward packs, widows, orphans, or landmine survivors piloting bomb boats down the Nam Ou river and recycling Grade A ordinance as decorative garden planters and spoons, a foreigner piled gold on a table in Laos. He turned to a one-eyed father. “I will give you this gold for your daughter.”

“I want more,” said patriarch. “Her face and body and heart are Lao. She has Vietnamese blood. It’s supply and demand. Business is business. Politics is business and business is politics. It’s all about perceived value. No plastic. Cash only. See this machete?” waving it in the man’s face, cutting him off.

Nearby, two American males eating Indian curry and garlic pita bread hadn’t decompressed. Trying to communicate in complete sentences was impossible. One released sounds, nouns, impressive words, past and present participles, guttural phrases, heavy deep real sentences and like a game of chess war or blind love showing zero respect the OTHER cut him off at the throat with a sharp sophisticated annunciated verbal machete.

Frustrated and grimacing, he suffered irreparable brain damage. Short circuit. Transmission lines collapsed.

Crash. Burn.

 The two Yankees were fresh off the banana boat. They’d sailed out of NY past the oxidized tall green torch lady, across the Atlantic, through the Mediterranean, slid through the Suez Canal, and picked up a cargo of palm oil in Goa before translating the lack of wind into thermal icecaps near Ceylon surveying tea plantations where they harvested pure logic in a scientifically coherent genesis.

The ship’s captain texted his mistress in Kuala Lumpur, “I’ll be late for dinner.”

She was engaged to a dour celibate hypocritical burning monk disguised as a novice meditating in an isolated cave on the Tibet-Bhutan border at 21,451 feet. She missed his calm sense of intention and clear motivation. She prayed he’d complete his destiny to be One With Everything. Fearless he’d leave the cave and travel south inside fatigued winds to meet her at an undisclosed location. This was her secret desire, wish, dream and consistent memory. 

She imagined him bargaining his flesh-covered skeleton in a brief life condition. Trading raw silk he negotiated passage with Silk Road nomads by communicating with Sumerian script etched on clay tablets. Brushing shard dust off shard dust revealed time-lines, sharp indentations, incomplete circles, zigzag lightning bolts and fingerprints of whirling dervish dancers. 

Whorls reflected afternoon light into somnambulistic retinas.

A middle-aged Laotian dwarf in a well-cut gray suit coat, black baggy cotton pants and army issued green tennis shoes walked past. Pink sky streaked sunset. He’d been walking all day. His stride was steady. Other than a bowl of noodles near the Mekong he’d been raising dust. Headed home he passed golden Wats, orange robed monks sweeping leaves, women simmering pots of food on clay burners fired by kindling, laughing children, blaring TVs, noisy engine repair shops, a sleeping tuk-tuk driver and floating bamboo pavilions where courtesans composed haiku. 

He passed a teashop sign:

Smile. We Will Help You Practice.

He walked across a narrow iron bridge above a raging river and down a muddy road to his bamboo home complete with a single watt bulb surrounded by dancing omnivorous insects.

 His shoes went near the door. Slapping his jacket against a wall released day’s dust. He hung it up. Splashing water on his face he smiled at his incomplete reflection. He poured a cup of green tea, ate a handful of sticky rice and prepared his table. 

He spread out a large sheet of rough handmade silk paper, camelhair brushes and black ink.

Memory spoke: After they cut my tongue out during my re-education through shit labor experience I started writing script. I found a compressed black Chinese ink stick with yellow dragons breathing fire.

I added a little water to a recessed gray stone surface. I placed the ink in the center. Then, using my right hand, as Master Liu in Chengdu taught me, I rotated the stick in a clockwise motion. Black ink ebbed into liquid as a drop of water rippled a pond.

After collecting ink I selected my white wolf hairbrush. After soaking it in water for three minutes to relax it’s inner tension I spread out thin rice paper. I placed my right foot at an angle, left foot straight, with my left palm flat on the table and fingers spread.

I dipped the brush in the recessed part of the stone to absorb ink and slowly dragged it along an edge removing excess. I savored the weight and heft. My brush has it own personality and character. There are 7,000 characters in my written language.

My Chinese script is about unity of mind and spirit.

I have much to see and a long way to travel with this unknowing truth.

My teacher recited a poem.

A mountain loses its spirit without cloud,

loses its peculiarity without stones,

loses its elegance without trees,

and loses its life without water,

and in painting,

one should concentrate the mind,

and hold the breath,

with concentration of the mind,

serenity is maintained,

with the breath held up,

preciseness is attained.

One should be as serene as an old monk in meditation and be as precise as a silk worm in spitting silk.

The spirit and real fun of painting are from nature and beyond brushes and paints.

 

I stood up straight inhaled three deep breaths and exhaled into emptiness. I centered my unconscious on blank paper filled with nothing. Respect white emptiness.

My wisdom mind of intent became water. It was quiet, calm and still with concentration and focus. I listened to brush, ink and paper. I am a conduit. Be the brush, be the ink, be the water, be the paper.

Each essence is pure, free, clear and luminous.

My useless tongue flapped like a prayer flag in Himalayan winds. Stories and songs are nightingales. I heard children laughing and singing. They greeted each other in the babble of play with laughing word pearls. They dream with their eyes open.

         When we are asleep we are awake.

         Life gave me art and I used art to celebrate life.

“No language, no culture,” Omar sang on a dune. Shooting stars played celestial tag.

Omar translated global media manifestations selling fear, double-edged messages, disinformation, misinformation, bias, lies, half-truths, myths, whispers, paranoia, propaganda, and irrational transmissions issued by philistine government authorities in every language on a spinning space rock.

Human brains overflowed with data. The remote control device was broken with too many channels. Idiots loved distractions.

Omar and Lucky did not take possession of that event. They meditated as mindfulness was gifted to tribes. They inhaled global suffering and exhaled healing evolving wisdom, clarity and compassionate awareness. They practiced harmony and gratitude.

Scholars educated at elitist universities and institutes of erudite psychoanalytic study related Latin stories about the rise and fall of 4,000-year old civilizations.

Survivors created 26,000-year old Paleolithic cave painting stories of the real world. Omar doodled archers, hunters, dancers, and bison, fish, awkward time slashes on stone.

Caves overflowed with survivors.

“A tisket a tasket we need a casket,” sang multi-lingual children.

Omar envisaged historians, politicians, talking heads, taxi drivers, fortune-tellers, beauticians and morticians taking hotline calls. The number of callers increased exponentially. Suicide search and rescue teams were alerted. Citizens packed hospital emergency rooms screaming, more drugs. Medical schools increased enrollment to meet manufactured needs.

Selling fear and consumption, Demand overwhelmed Supply.

The Language Company

Friday
Jun192015

How am I supposed to feel? - TLC 14

A brilliant kid in his second year of medical school expressed uncertainty in a TLC encounter. “How am I supposed to feel when I see these patients?”

“It’s about objective detachment with compassion. Emotional distance. Doubt is good. Do what you can. The rest is silence.”

“I am one of them. I am a patient. It's hard being a doctor. I don't know enough to help them. I am learning from more experienced students and doctors.”

“Pay your dues. We are all terminal cases. What do they tell you in the emergency room?”

“They tell me how I will learn how to keep my perspective over time.”

“True. What do you do to relax?”

“I go out with my friends to a club. I go to movies. I want to forget about all the terrible things I've seen at the hospital. But I am happy being a doctor. When someone puts on the white coat they feel special. They help people. I thought about becoming an engineer like my father but I saw how he only worked with machines, how at the end of the day he would come home and talk about electricity. It was interesting but I wanted more out of life. I wanted to understand DNA and genetic structures. I wanted to help others.”

“Helping others with kindness is your gift. You’re doing good work. Thanks for sharing with me.”

“You’re welcome. Being a doctor is hard. I don’t know how I am supposed to feel.”

TLC

Tuesday
Jun162015

Burn your fear

Creative non-fiction. Journalistic facts. Literary imagination.

Lucky Foot taught English at The Language Company in Turkey in 2008. He returned in 2012 to explore Trabzon along the Black Sea. Field notes.

A Vietnam veteran, journalist and facilitator of courage he gifted luck to people in China, Turkey, Indonesia, Cambodia, Vietnam, and Laos since 2004.

He showed up to sit for a spell nurturing positive relationships in the long now.

Accompanied by Humor and Curiosity he helped students speak English minus their illusions of fear and phobia's relatives:

Fear of taking a risk.

Fear of being incorrect.

Fear of peer ridicule.

Fear of poverty.

Fear of starvation.

Fear of being ordinary.

Fear of success.

Fear of abandoning a manuscript by Zeynep entitled TLC.

Fear of accepting responsibility for their choices and accepting the consequences.

Fear of letting go of old conditioning. Shadows.

Fear of being alive and real. Growing.

Fear of_______. (Your free choice)

Lucky, Humor and Curiosity observed parents, schools, and religions fostering passive acceptance, fear, indifference and rote learning teacher-centered systems.

It was all about passing exams, not learning how to be more human and think for yourself.

Status quo. Sheep mentality. Blend in. Questions are forbidden. Authority washes your brain daily.

Zeynep, his young genius friend in Bursa, Turkey taught him about life in her totalitarian country.

As a literary outlaw I say what others are afraid to say. Anxiety is a chronic national problem. Adults here are good at two things, eating and fighting. Dissent is terrorism say our corrupt manikin authority figures.

Leo revealed dystopian China. I spent years carrying word shit in a Re-education through Reform Labor Camp for questioning Authority. Everyone here belongs to the Big Ears, No Mouth society.

Oh the shame.

Rita, the independent author of Ice Girl in Banlung shared stories about her Khmer culture and Cambodian history. We've had twenty years of hopelessness. We breed. We work. We get slaughtered. Poor people see education as a waste of time and money.

I dream I am a free person in a free country.

A seven year-old Vientiane kid explained Laos. I develop my authentic character with critical thinking skills, humor, gratitude, abundance, and wonder as a free- thinking individual. I have my junior philosopher's badge.

If you want to do great things you must take great risks and suffer greatly, said Zeynep. You either let go or get dragged along.

Awareness. Mindfulness. Compassion.

It's not about people buying this book, Rita said. It's about people reading it.

TLC

Monday
Jun152015

Big Time - TLC 13

One curious phenomenon in Turkey was the predominant and fashionable Big Time watch.

Big Time displayed itself in grandiose opulent design styles, rainbow spectrums and analog displays. He observed huge pieces illustrating manifestations of invisible time delighting wrists with panache and glamour. Frequent sightings of super-sized chromatic sundials featured a Kurdish weight lifter struggling to keep time overhead. For the majority of volunteer wage slaves heavy time dragged them through life.

A sweeping second hand swept piles of debris stranded on corners past idle bored women studying their undulating singular reflection in store windows between numerals 12 and 6.

A wild rabbit dragging a pocket Watch Out down Dreamtime Street yelled, “I’m late, I’m late for a very important date, no time to say hello, goodbye, I'm late, I’m late, I’m late.”

Rabbit passed Curious, a Chinese linguist at the intersection of Imaginary Fear & Enlightenment.

“What are you doing?” said Rabbit.

“I am begging people to open their head, heart, mouth and get to the verb. Where are you going in such a hurry Mr. Rabbit?”

“Through the looking glass.”

“May I go with you?”

“Do you have courage?”

“Yes. It's my most important virtue.”

“What is essential is invisible to the eye. Let’s share an adventure.”

TLC 

Friday
Jun122015

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A Century is Nothing - Gonzo epic

Ice Girl in Banlung - Rita the writer in Cambodia shares her reality with wandering Leo from China

Death Worship in Nam - Feed ancestors or else said ghosts

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