Awareness
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A Japanese friend says their TV shouts, “The Martians are Coming.”
A Japanese friend says their TV shouts, “The Martians are Coming.”
The trapped mother realized her ice reality. Concise crying crystals reflected clarity. Suffering from fate and free will she danced in flames seeking her SAVE key.
Hearing a child say, “I need help,” she received a blessing.
A child whispered, “The ending is the middle.”
“The middle is the beginning,” said a child. “You can start the story anywhere.”
“We are all orphans sooner or later,” said Rose. “We bury our successes and failures in the same grave.”
Death and the gravedigger agreed. “Everyone comes to us.”
Rail music sang click, clack, click and clack.
In a dome liner, children ate watermelon and spit seeds into sky. A red haired female magician made poverty disappear. Passengers formed quick intense transient relationships between whistle stops before, during and after industrial wastelands.
We zoomed past small town wrecking yards with cars and trucks collecting rust, abandoned swings, toys, dishwashers, gardens, guillotines, baskets of severed heads, shredded tires and water soaked concave fences collapsing into community soil.
I hammered word spikes while waving to strangers stranded in their present perfect tense seeing trains carry perfect continuous tense strangers into new futures.
Down the line riding the rails. Further along the road of iron deficiencies.
At a remote train station, a furious man with his shopping cart home and a whiskey bottle in a bag sagged against a brick wall yelling at his slumped wife.
Her old sad eyes stared far away wondering how she managed to get herself in this fucking mess away from social services, respect, dignity and love. Her heart knew if she had any common sense (not very common) or any strength or power she’d get up and start walking.
Her dilemma was to find a way out of the quicksand swallowing her life. She was conditioned to having someone save her. She loved being a victim and needed a martyr.
Clear cold thin Rocky Mountain air quickened blood streams. We’ve enjoyed rail’s clicking clacking trestle music exchanging laughter and awareness. Visions of starlight sky blends with engine headlights shattering blackness. We arrive at Union Station in Denver.
I know the field behind the station where the headless homeless heartbroken hoboes, drifters and transients exist, hide and run for their lives.
It’s a tricky place at night. It runs north way up to the stockyards near the old Coliseum, not to be confused with the one in Rome where they fed you-know-who to you-know-what. Where every cold frostbitten February, cowboys, cowgirls and plain old city folk put on the Stockman’s extravaganza awarding prizes to animals and the field runs south past the main Post Office Terminal annex and westward toward immigrant hopes and dreams up to Federal Boulevard on a rise with a church and laundromats and renovated upscale posh neighborhoods overlooking a gleaming screaming downtown Silver City skyline. The killing field is filled with tall weeds in the Platte River flood plain.
There’s a fine view of the Rocky Mountains from the field amid random acts of pre-meditated violence around small fires as drifters pray to stay invisible long enough to ride rails out of town away from the mean old street.
In the summer, children scream on the roller coaster at Elitch Gardens up on 38th and Tennyson where my aunt and uncle ran a drugstore and pharmacy after WWII. They worked their fingers to the bone, sweated their lives out and never asked for a thing. My aunt was so scared by the Depression she maintained thirty-seven folders budgeting the cash flow by counting every penny every night.
It ain’t no field of dreams in that big lonely weed choked undeveloped tract of real estate where freights and Amtrak dome liners blow long sad whistles as buttoned waiters serve blood red Colorado tenderloin down wind from the smell of meat grilling at Coors Field where boys of summer play hardball.
The Coast Starlight sliding toward Kansas curves into a space-time bend.
Moon drinks rainwater.
Walking rails I sing with Robert Johnson…“Woke up this morning and looked around for my shoes…I got them walking blues.”
I savor impermanence. Cool blood decorates hot black keys as I bleed words.
Keep your own counsel
Poetry is what happens when nothing else can
It’s what you find in the corner
Circus people live on the edge
Sunset swift lets fill orange sky with magic
Breathe in nose
Mental hypothalamus
Unconscious
70,000 years of pointillism
Walking makes the road
Khmer wedding music clanging symbols
Yellow silk accompanies jackhammers
In a brave new world
Pure mind Buddhism - world as illusion
Clowns decorate random acts of kindness
With the gravity of tenderness
Look and leave people dance
As death
Chases them through life
Go go go
Smiling makes you happy
Be happy for no reason
Your compassion is greater than your fear
Rain glorious soft smooth clear rain
Cloud tears echo silence
Calm way
Spring speaks laughter
Cool sky jazz
Water imagination seeds with bliss & gratitude
Diamonds reflect a universe on bamboo leaf
In a Brave New World you shift from truth and beauty to comfort and happiness.
I ate civilization.
“Let’s create a book,” said one, “and we’ll be in it. We can create a quest about love & survival. Like ART, adventure, risk and transformation.”
“Hey it’s a great possibility, with stories or vignettes for word salad dressing.”
“We need stories, water, shelter, food and love.”
“Stories existed before food and shelter. Stories describe hunting for food and social needs. All stories are about forms of hunger.”
“Love is a blind whore with a mental disease and no sense of humor,” said a shadow.
“Will it be a man-u-script or a woman-u-script?”
“Both. If it ain’t on the page it ain’t on the stage.”
“We are authors looking for characters,” said an Italian kid named Pirandello. “I am a plot looking for a character.”
“When someone dies survivors look for a plot,” said a gravedigger.
“It will have characters facing conflict on their quest,” said a young scriptor. “It will have satire, humor, curiosity and courage.”
“Yes,” said a writer. “It will be a labyrinth of desires and obstacles with rising and falling action and resolution as characters take risks, suffer greatly and overcome adversity to realize their authenticity. You will experience what characters sense and imagine through their actions. Socrates subordinated character to action. Get to the verb.”
“Let’s make it dramatic by focusing our spotlight on specifics and floodlight on the general to establish a P.O.V. I’ll play director. Places everyone. Lights. Camera. Action!”
“Our stories contain conscious and unconscious awareness like a maze or a puzzle palace. I need your help with dialogue and action as characters reveal their fears by living forty questions in the dark night of their soul. They trade their soul to the devil down at the crossroads at midnight so they can play the blues, create art and dance. Free from masks they are breathing, laughing and living healers.”
“Let’s act out their fears, dreams and joy.”
“Do your characters discuss moral ambiguities?”
“Yes. They speak with nouns and verbs with choices, actions and consequences. They slay adverbial dragons with an ultra fine red pen.”
“Is a place like this hospital a character?”
“Sure, a place has character? Writers explore environments like Tacoma, Vietnam, Morocco, Spain, caves…”
“It sounds like nature vs human or human vs human or human vs themself. You become the thing you fight the most.”
“Do they playfully deconstruct the human condition with story-truth moving the narrative forward to get to the root of their experience?”
“The roots are below the surface,” said a young nun washing teacups on a Taoist mountain in Sichuan, China. “I mediate on the roots below the surface of appearances.”
“Get is the joker word in English. A lit agent at the Willamette Writer’s Conference said this work is a word farrago photograph, a jazz beat stylistic epic in process. She suggested throwing the narrative out and focus on one geography or one specific time.”
“Yeah, yeah,” said Rita, 14, an ice seller and independent author of Ice Girl in Banlung in Ratanakiri, Cambodia.
It was a wild-west town of 25,000 with dusty red roads near the River of Darkness and animist cemeteries. “It’s fucking hysterical.”